When LOL Is A Lie
I didn’t realize how much I lied everyday. It’s bad. Really bad. Shoveling out lies left and right.
When folks first started using the term LOL….I just hated it. Have we become such a lazy society that not only can we NOT laugh at something, we have to shorten that laugh to fit inside of our quick text message response? But as the years went on….I soon realized that I am now 2 kids and a smartphone away from the rest of the world. In the thralls of motherhood, I find myself typing and cringing as I write the catch phrase that I cannot stand, LOL. When did LOL become a lie?
There are days when I am desperate for adult attention. Starving for any connection to something that doesn’t include school homework and what surprise I will find inside of my daughter’s diaper today. But who wants to text an unhappy desperate person? I know, sounds pretty pathetic. No, we all want folks to think that our lives are great. That we love staying home with our children day after day, that we couldn’t enjoy life any more than if we had 50 more kids to take care of. We want to hear about struggles with “real” jobs and laugh with them as they tell about the coffee blunder of the day or the hilarious email that circulated the office. They come to stay-at-home moms for that ray of sunshine in their day. So without thinking twice, I text back those three little letters.
Not even realizing the damaging effects those three letters have on my own life. LOL is a lie. There are days when I have no desire to laugh…via text or otherwise. But we pretend. We pretend for our friends. We pretend for our family. We pretend for ourselves that we just Laugh Out Loud everyday. It sounds easy, refreshing, happy. There is in fact very few if ever times when I have laughed out loud to something texted to me. And if it really was that funny…I would say it was funny.
But know that if you get an LOL from me…it’s really my calling card for help. I’m not laughing. I may just be completely opposite. So desperate for interaction with people that I will do anything to get a response and a positive one at that. LOL for me….it’s a complete lie. I hate the phrase. I still do. My life isn’t perfect. And it certainly isn’t always filled with moments where I laugh out loud. I don’t want to use LOL as my fake smile to the world anymore.
I cherish the moments when I really am laughing out loud. And trust me, I will be too busy to text that to you.